[Well, here goes a difficult topic when he's compromised as hell.] Not all of them trust me as much as other ones. They accept I want them to b-be alive and unharmed. Some of them still hate me. Some of them... I-I don't know how to describe it. They're giving me a chance and I... d-don't know if they have expectations as to what I'll do with it.
I-I-I don't think they trust me about the stones, for a number of reasons. I was brainwashed. And under duress. And traumatized by... a-all the possession I-I already mentioned. There was so much control. Too much for them to risk telling me, I'm gathering. Thanos' control over me, and... an-and my a-a-attacks on the other Midgard they heard about.
[Loki gulps and continues,] That's a part of why... Bucky and Steve trusted me, first. Before the others. The ones that are angry at other-me... I-I'm not sure I'll ever be able to prove anything to them, but trusting me with some things... even trusting me with their lives and with joining them... it... i-isn't the same thing as... trusting me with information... like that.
Honestly, if it was just a year after knowing someone like that, I-- can't say I'd trust someone with something that deeply connected to our fight with one another, either. I feel like we've come a long way. They know I'm not their enemy. Most of them see me as their ally, or at very least as a compromise. But me... calling them my friends... th-that doesn't mean they'd call me their friend if-- i-if that makes sense.
Some of them would probably laugh, were I to be struck in the face. Maybe it's guilt or... seeing myself in them, when they don't see themselves in me. But I-- care about them, when some of them would rather not care about me. But regardless... they don't-- t-tell me everything.
[It was so difficult, after flashbacks of Sanctuary, to admit that he cared about people who didn't care for him. The shame was bad enough, but with SENTIMENT screaming so badly in him with the admittance, he felt like he was inviting harm to them, just admitting that he gave a damn.]
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I-I-I don't think they trust me about the stones, for a number of reasons. I was brainwashed. And under duress. And traumatized by... a-all the possession I-I already mentioned. There was so much control. Too much for them to risk telling me, I'm gathering. Thanos' control over me, and... an-and my a-a-attacks on the other Midgard they heard about.
[Loki gulps and continues,] That's a part of why... Bucky and Steve trusted me, first. Before the others. The ones that are angry at other-me... I-I'm not sure I'll ever be able to prove anything to them, but trusting me with some things... even trusting me with their lives and with joining them... it... i-isn't the same thing as... trusting me with information... like that.
Honestly, if it was just a year after knowing someone like that, I-- can't say I'd trust someone with something that deeply connected to our fight with one another, either. I feel like we've come a long way. They know I'm not their enemy. Most of them see me as their ally, or at very least as a compromise. But me... calling them my friends... th-that doesn't mean they'd call me their friend if-- i-if that makes sense.
Some of them would probably laugh, were I to be struck in the face. Maybe it's guilt or... seeing myself in them, when they don't see themselves in me. But I-- care about them, when some of them would rather not care about me. But regardless... they don't-- t-tell me everything.
[It was so difficult, after flashbacks of Sanctuary, to admit that he cared about people who didn't care for him. The shame was bad enough, but with SENTIMENT screaming so badly in him with the admittance, he felt like he was inviting harm to them, just admitting that he gave a damn.]