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toplvl2021-03-19 05:28 pm
aita?

am i the asshole?
Life isn’t always black and white. Sometimes it’s hard to tell who’s really at fault, and no one wants to believe they’re the bad guy. Sometimes you need an outside opinion. Or several.
Tell your side of the story and crowdsource an honest answer to the age old question; Am I The Asshole?

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*cackles madly*
What do you believe you are now, then?
THAT ICON
[ He can admit that to her. And perhaps only to her. ]
I knew what he was, and that he couldn't be trusted. At the time...it made sense. Use him to my ends, allow the galaxy to come to hate him, overthrow him and install something better. People who would genuinely care about the galaxy and its people. Wouldn't use them as pawns. Now...I don't know why I believed it. But then...
And after I was trapped. I needed him, I needed the Empire's resources, I needed what he knew. Just until I didn't. But wasn't strong enough to overthrow him.
I failed on every level of what I attempted.
BEST ICON. WE'LL JUST LEAVE IT THERE FOR NOW. THE GHOST AT THE BROKEN HEART OF BROKEN HIS SOUL
All that --
And you still aren't sorry.
The manifestation of her death and his literal heart damage
Sorry?
[ Despite...everything - the vocal modulator, the vocal amplifier, the mask, his monotone manner of speaking - there's clear scorn in his tone, somehow. ]
That is too insubstantial an idea for what I feel.
[ Only her. Only to her. Would this be admitted. ]
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Which is?
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Is there even a word for it Padmé? Sorrow, regret, guilt, grief - an ache to make things right to know that time has long since passed, what word is there for it? To see what I have done, what I have become, and to know it was by my choice, and in doing so tore apart everything I hoped to build, to have, to lose everyone and everything because of decisions I made, to have those I loved once hate me.
To know it's my fault.
What word is there for that?