you don't know me

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bad rap

The things we become known for aren’t always what we’d like to be known for. Reputations are hard to run from. Sometimes they’re not even deserved. So here’s your chance to set the record straight. Clear up some misplaced assumptions, debunk any rumours about yourself and defy your stereotypes.

how to play:

Top level with something(s) your character is tired of people assuming about them, blaming them for, or pigeonholing them about, etc. Say it in person or over text.

Comment on any surprising, or not so surprising declarations.

Comments

james buchanan barnes | mcu

[counterstep]

I'm not brooding. I just have resting bitch face.

[lawyerbyday]

You sound absolutely lovely to me?

[counterstep]

...I don't know if I was going for sounding lovely, but I'll take it. ( he huffs laughter lightly. )

People say I sound bored a lot, too. But I dunno. I think it's got more with how I look, and what they think it means instead of what I'm really saying.

[lawyerbyday]

I didn't know how you'd take sexy. You have a very low and interesting voice. I'm intrigued.

People still rely on the book cover and not the book. I think they miss a lot with that attitude.

[counterstep]

Well, they also think it's sexy too. The whole brooding thing. Except, y'know, like I said, I'm not. Interesting like how? I mean, I guess I. I have an idea of what that means for looks, but.

If it's not too weird for me to ask, that is. You're right, though. People usually just see or think what they want to and not what's really there. That usually needs patience, and. With the way people rush around New York these days, seems like there's not much to go around.

[lawyerbyday]

Cadence. Tenor. You have a pleasant sounding voice, which matters to me for obvious reasons. I'd like to listen to you talk. It's not nasally or screechy.

Patience is a virtue that most people in this city aren't passingly familiar with. Not unless they really need it. But people have a way of surprising you when you think they can't.

wow this got serious so fast i'm sorry

[counterstep]

Definitely feels rarer, these days. The people that understand virtue, value it. Maybe that's more to do with the population density, though. And I guess less people being religious now. I'm not religious either, anymore, but I do know there are things worth believing in. Fighting for. People included.

That's what I do it all for. The people who don't have anyone else. If I don't, who will?

no you're not, you drama slut. (I'm here for it)

[lawyerbyday]

I'm a Catholic lawyer in Hell's Kitchen. I know about the scarcity of faith. Just because one doesn't go to church doesn't mean you're not religious. It's just... more private.

See, and that is what makes you interesting. That and your voice. And whatever aftershave you're wearing. It suits you.

8') it's okay matt keep flirting he'll notice eventually......probably

[counterstep]

It was on sale. ( ...cheap stuff. he's not great at the pampering. or reading when a guy is flirting with him, but he's from a different time. )

I. Don't know if I really am, though. Even privately. That feels almost bad to say when I would pray all the time for Steve to make it through the night as a kid, and he would, but. I. I don't know where God could have been at all, after. With. Everything else.

( he says that like anyone would really know beyond the cleaned up pr edition of his past that most can find on wikipedia these days, but that he never talks about it directly unless asked usually says plenty enough. )

Bucky... /cry

[lawyerbyday]

It's difficult balancing faith with the world and what's happening in it. More bad things, more bad people. You see the worst of humanity and you can't imagine there's someone that's supposed to be watching over us who cares.

[Matt signalled Josey for another drink, pointing at Bucky to get him one too.]

The best way I manage is to remind myself of the Free Will aspect. He gave us that and we're the ones screwing it up. He can't just come in like some pissed off parent and decide that we ruined His creation and now He's taking it back. We made our bed and now we have to figure out a way to live in it. But... He's there for the people that look for Him, I think. The ones that listen hard enough to hear Him.

[Matt Murdock, the blind theologist, everyone.]

it's not his fault he never questioned his interests!! no one explained bi to him!!

[counterstep]

( bucky's never thought hard enough about it (along with many other things), mostly resigned himself in passing. but that's because he's a filthy protestant that didn't have the fear of god beat into him as a child. it's something to think about, regardless, reason to actually brood, but he doesn't know if now's the time for it. the soldier expects matt didn't ask him out for drinks just to realign his faith. )

Was pretty bad at that too, as a kid. Listening for what He wants to say.

( and now as well, not listening to how matt is saying certain things, but he's privileged and has sight so doesn't really realize better either. )

Anyway. People haven't really talked about my voice before. Glad it's not like nails on a chalkboard.

he's gonna get hit on by a bi blind lawyer. let him feel your..... face, Bucky.

[lawyerbyday]

It's not. I've heard actual nails on chalkboard. It should be banned by the Geneva Convention.

[He grinned as his drink was set in front of him. Then he turned to Bucky.]

So this... resting bitch face. I assume it's as good looking as the bored sounding voice?

sure, he hears that helps blind people uwu

[counterstep]

Yeah, ain't pleasant. Had a teacher who'd do it on accident all the time in secondary, and we hated her class cause you just never knew when it'd happen next.

( pausing, he gave a nod in thanks for his next drink as it was set down before looking to matt again, turning to face him instinctively. )

Guess it'd depend on what you think is good looking. I know I've got looks; used to turn heads at the dance hall when I walked in. Just. It's different, I guess. When people say it the way they do now like I don't have PTSD.

[fooledfirst]

Same reason people think I'm angry all the time. [This guy also have an resting bitch face. But he's also So Done with people.]

[counterstep]

They say that about me too, sometimes. That I'm angry. When I'm not.

( tired of people is still tired of people and not angry! )

[fooledfirst]

People rarely look beyond the exterior. I personally think I'm adorable. But I deal with infuriating people.

[counterstep]

Looks aren't everything, but I guess it's also not that easy to tell who someone really is beyond their looks without having an actual conversation. And most people don't bother with that.

Anyway. Adorable isn't really the word, I'd use, but I guess that's subjective, so. Not angry, though, at least.

[fooledfirst]

I can't say I place much judgment on the way people look. What's important is what's in their hearts. You can learn much from a talk, shame it has been lost.

What would you say I come off as?

[counterstep]

Just harder to find, so not entirely lost, at least.

( bucky takes a step back, giving him a once over. humming faintly, he steps forward again after a moment. )

Handsome. Serious. You seem like someone who'd have a lot on their mind.

[fooledfirst]

You're not far off in that assessment. I'm a very old soul.

[counterstep]

( huh. )

Rare to meet anyone else that'd also describe themselves that way.

[fooledfirst]

I have been through imprisonment and torture for years. Not only has it aged me but it has also given me a resolve to never let it happen again. I might just understand you better than most, James.

[counterstep]

( he tenses at the use of his name. he hadn't given it, and even the people that might recognize him as the winter soldier certainly wouldn't use it like that. no, he's being seen through, here, and that. that's not normal. )

...who are you?

[fooledfirst]

Gadreel. Angel of the Lord, yadda yadda.

[With a shrug he'll produce two beers, seemingly out of nowhere and hand one to Bucky.]

I'm just here to have an conversation, nothing else.

[counterstep]

( he takes the beer hesitantly. he knows people with pocket dimensions, yes, but they aren't strangers offering him beer either. )

...angel? ( bucky can't think of what else to say. his brain is pretty much stuck on that bit. some of the earlier alarm subsides, but the confusion has far from abated. )